Life

When the Sun Won’t Shine

Do you ever have times where you’re down and you have no idea why?  You’re just down?

Today is one of those days.

My soul is heavy and I feel weighted down by the burden of life.

Just life.

Nothing major.  Not a breakup, or a suspended license, or a college refusal letter.

Just life.

The dozens of equations waiting to be worked out.  The pages of journaling yet to be written.  The love needed to reach out and be part of my family.

The painstaking, gut-wrenching crawl towards Jesus.

It’s exhausting.  I am overcome.  It is here that I am tested.  From where does my help come? (a)

Do I seek it out on YouTube?

Do I envelop myself in a blanket and cry?

Do I numb my mind and soul in endless television?

*deep breath*  I preach to myself.

My help comes from the Lord. (b)

My help comes from the Lord.

My help comes from the Lord.

Not from within myself.

My help comes from the Lord.

Not from this world.

My help comes from the Lord.

Not from my friends.

My help comes from the Lord.

Not even from my family.

My help comes from the Lord.

It is only this sure and steadfast anchor (c) that I can cling to in every storm.  I call out to my Savior.

Let Your steadfast love comfort me according to Your promise to Your servant! (d)

According to Your promise.

According to Your promise.

Your promise?  You have promised to save me.

I am comforted.  You have promised to save me.  I know you to be a faithful God.  You have promised to save me.

I am saved.  I am loved.  I am Yours.

And it is enough.

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(a) Psalm 121:1
(b) Psalm 121:2
(c) Hebrews 6:19
(d) Psalm 119:76

All references are taken from the ESV translation.